Espresso, Treadmill Racing and Fears

Monday, December 30, 2013
You know what a delicious post workout treat is…

This double espresso that I am currently enjoying.
I don't know if I've ever told you guys about the Nespresso machine we bought. It's unbelievable. I'm not big on the pod coffee machines, but holy crap this one is it! The Nespresso espresso is really good quality and is extremely delicious. The flavors are full and strong, just like I like my espresso to be. Even the decaf!
We also got the frother, but it doesn't get much use since I can't have dairy. I've tried to froth almond milk, but it doesn't froth. It just warms it up. Although, sometimes I do it to just warm it up and put it in my espresso.

I had a fantastic workout today. FYI.
Six miles on the ol' treadmill, and some strength training. The guy next to me was trying to race me. I do this to people a little bit. You know, peek over to see how fast they are running and start comparing it to your speed. Then speed up if you can.
But this guy was seriously trying to race. I was negative splitting every mile, for my run today. Every time I would speed up, he would blatantly look over to see my speed, and he would try to match my speed. This went on for quite a few miles.

Guess who won….
Silly boy.

Today's post is about fears. Fears are interesting things. In my 31 years, I've found that peoples fear of "something" can be one of the biggest motivators in why they behave the way they do, why they do or don't do certain things, and what/who they believe in.

Just something interesting to think about.

Anyways…these are not all of my deepest, darkest fears.
But they are some of the fears that I have.

1. The Veterinarian.
Every time we take a dog to the vet, it somehow ends up costing hundreds of dollars. Earlier this year Harper ate some stuffing from a toy and it ended up costing us thousands of dollars. Just for tearing up a toy like every puppy in the world does. Every time there is a chance that one of the dogs does something remotely abnormal, I get REALLY worried and start checking the pet savings fund and thinking of odd jobs I can do to earn some extra income. I completely panic. So if you see me on a street corner trying to earn some extra cash, odds are one of my dogs is scratching his ear or hasn't pooped in 18 hours.

2. Being attacked at my car in the dark.
I have no idea where this fear came from but it's real. I'm even afraid of this happening in my own driveway. Let's just say I'm very aware, everywhere I go.

3. Someone getting access to our bank accounts.
This has happened to both PJ and I before. Luckily it was when I was younger and I didnt' have any money. Now I track and check our accounts obsessively. I could tell you off the top of my head what the last 5 deductions should be in any of our accounts.

4. Being somewhere and finding myself stranded without food.
I always always always have food in my bag and in my car.

5. Peeing my pants on accident.
I also always have an extra pair of underwear in my bag and in my car.

6. Bed bugs.

7. Those haunted houses that are set up around halloween, specifically designed to scare the crap out of you.
I love scary movies and scary stories. Especially realistic ones that could actually happen. But oh my god do not even ask me to go to a Fright Fest, Trail of Terror, Death Manor, anything like that. The thought scares me so much that I want to throw up.

There you have it. Some of the things that I am afraid of.

What are you afraid of?

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Sunday Pictures

Sunday, December 29, 2013
Happy Sunday! The weekend is over…but luckily it's still technically "the holidays". That makes me feel like I can move a bit slower, relax a bit more, and have a little extra wine with dinner.

Today was a dreary rainy day. We spent the day cooking good food, drinking peppermint mochas, snuggling and doing some work on the trainer.


Do you know what one of the coolest part of those pictures is…
That Starbucks gift card has 70 dollars left on it! Party!!!!

I hope everyones Sunday was as nice as mine.
Tomorrow were going to talk fears! Oh boy!

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Exhaustion Has Set In...

Thursday, December 26, 2013
Good evening everyone! I'm unbelievably exhausted today. The last few days sleep has been non-exisitient and it has finally caught up with me.

Pumping is kicking my butt lately. Aria has started sleeping longer stretches at night, which is awesome…except that the fact that she is sleeping longer means absolutely nothing for my rest. I'm still up every three and a half hours pumping.

Some weeks it just sort of goes by…day by day…pump pump pump, no big deal. Other weeks I feel like I may go insane from lack of sleep…or just die from it. This is one of those weeks.

I keep thinking of things to write about, but when I start to type, everything gets jumbled together and it doesn't make any sense.

I'm watching Marley and Me right now. It takes place in Florida and all I can think about is how one time in Jacksonville, Florida I walked through a drive through for a late night snack...because I'm a classy lady.
I was 22. Give me  break.

I also had a friend who I used to go rollerblading with in Florida. We would do lame tricks and jump over things. We thought we were so cool. Then he almost burned down my apartment when he forgot to remove the cardboard from the frozen pizza, before putting it in the oven.

I love pizza. Can we have pizza now?

Anyways, what I am getting at is that I'm going to go get some much needed rest. Otherwise I have no idea what will happen to me.

Good night.
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One Year Ago

Monday, December 23, 2013
One year ago today, two very big things happened…

First…our (then) little girl Harper Burrito came into our lives…

Our girl Harper came from a farm in Virginia. She and her brothers and sisters were just dropped off at someones farm. My mom lives down that way, and she saw the listing in the paper. She and my brother went over to the house, picked out the coolest of the baby dogs…and then my very tall brother drove Harper all the way to Connecticut.

Tall brother:

The other very big thing that happened was that after 5 months of wishing and trying…everything synced up and little miss Aria was created.

TMI? Ah well.

Any other month we wouldn't have been able to pinpoint the day so certainly. But last winter I was really sick with tonsillitis and for 3 weeks, so December was very limited if you know what I mean.

I know you know what I mean.

Anyways….we had been trying for a few months at that point. We were both healthy, I was charting my cycle, taking prenatals and fish oil, reading all the books, standing on my head, not stepping on any cracks, etc. etc.

I was doing everything I could to ensure optimal baby creating…but it just seemed like nothing was happening. I know in the grand scheme of things that those 5 months were nothing. Especially compared to how long some couples try.
But, when you are actively trying to have a baby, every month drags onnnn.

So after we didn't get pregnant those first 4 months, we thought...Okay, maybe it's just not meant to be just yet. We've been talking about getting another dog for a while. Maybe now is the time to add to our family in that way. Our baby will come when it's time.

Little did we know that Harper would become part of our family on December 23rd and 39 weeks and 2 days later, our little girl would come home.

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Things I Can't Do Anymore

Thursday, December 19, 2013
Good afternoon! It's espresso and blog time, while my little night owl angel is napping. Aria was sleeping so well for about 2 months…and then suddenly 2 weeks ago it's like she's a different baby. She used to go to bed around 7pm, sleep until about 1am, wake up and eat. Then she would go back to sleep until around 5 or 6, eat and then sleep until 9. It was so nice.
The past 2 weeks she has been staying up until 9pm, and waking up several times a night. Last night she woke up at 1, 2, 3, 5 and then 6. And I had to pump at 2 and 6. Last night was not fun.

I haven't felt this worn down in a while.

From what I hear, this is about the time for her to go through the 4 month sleep regression. Yippee.

Today's post is about things I can't do anymore. I felt inspired by an episode of How I Met Your Mother, where Barney tries to do a bunch of things that he's too old for…He called it the Murtaugh List.

If you haven't seen it, check it out. It's hilarious. I think all seasons are on Netflix Watch Instantly, right now.

Things I can't do anymore:

1. Watch the Real World.
I used to love watching the Real World. Now it just makes my head hurt.

2. Play in the ball pit.
Not because I'm too mature. I'd love a nice ball pit romp! It's because I'm now old enough to know about all of the things that leak out of small children, and how most of it comes from their bottom half. Kids will pee on anything. And some adults.

3. Pay money to get into a bar.
A few years ago I'd happily pay whatever the cover was for a bar. Now I find it hard to believe any bar is worth 10 bucks just to get in the door. I'll have myself a bottle of wine and sit by the fire pit for free thankyouverymuch.

4. Shots.
The thought makes me want to barf.

5. Wear a thong just because.
If they're necessary for my attire…yes, I can get down with that.
But I've spent wayyyy too many miles in the saddle (on my bike) to intentionally wear anything that is uncomfortable on my undercarriage.

6. Being unhappy.
There's a point in your life where you just ask yourself "If I'm so freaking unhappy, why don't I do something about it?" And then you quit bitching, quit making dumb decisions, and start living your life.

7. Wearing backless tops.

8. Staying in crappy hotels.
I'm all for saving money. I love saving money. I rarely buy something that isn't on sale.
But, I'm just too old to stay in a crappy hotel. I need some comfort in my travels. A nice bed, a big tub and a continental breakfast heaven!

9. Wear pants with writing on the butt.
Also…just, no.

15. To give a shit.

Have an awesome night. I promise tomorrows post will have some real content. I've been list happy these past few days.

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Another Breastfeeding Post

Friday, December 6, 2013
Good morning! After a really tough night, Aria is still sleeping, and I'm using this time to catch up on some things (ie. pump).

I've had a few people ask how pumping is going, so I thought I'd post an update on breastfeeding and pumping.

I do want to start out by saying that breastfeeding is hard work and so is pumping. I'm not trying to imply that pumping is harder, through talking about my experiences. Pumping is what I know, since we weren't successful with BFing. And this post is about my own experience.

I can officially say that I am exclusively pumping. Womp womp. I have tried to bring Aria back to the breast numerous times (the last on Wednesday), but it just isn't happening. It always ends in her screaming and me feeling awful. Maybe she has PTSD from my boobs. Who knows.

I've been exclusively pumping now for 2 full months. It is not what I had in mind when I envisioned feeding my baby. But I've accepted that the important thing is she is eating and thriving. I actually think she put on 5 pounds overnight because yesterday she felt HUGE.

The biggest benefit to pumping, other than the fact that Aria is getting what she needs and growing right on track, is that other people can feed her. I can say that is really nice. This past weekend we traveled to Maryland for Thanksgiving and there was always an extra pair of hands who wanted to feed her. That was helpful because I used that time to duck away and pump.

The biggest challenge to exclusively pumping is the time commitment. Throughout the day and night, I have to pump as many times as Aria eats, to make sure I keep up my supply…which sounds sort of silly since I have such an oversupply. But if I want to keep it flowing…I've gotta keep pumping.

The double duty is toughest at night and when I'm away from the house.

For night pumps…she generally wakes up at 1am and 5am to eat and goes back to sleep. I can either time my pumps at the same time she eats, and just pump before or after, which has me awake for chunks of an hour to an hour and a half in the middle of the night. Or I can time them between her feedings, but that leaves me waking up even more. It's a double edged sword.

When I'm away from the house I have to get creative.

A few weekends ago when I was at Friends Thanksgiving, I had to excuse myself into a bedroom to pump. 
I pump in the car when we travel. 
I pump in the car when I'm out of the house and pump time rolls around.
I pumped at thanksgiving numerous times. 
After our anniversary dinner I pumped in the parking lot of the restaurant before we went to get coffee.
I've even excused myself to the car to pump at the bowling alley.

And if I don't have my pump stuff, I have to go back home for a session. Kind of a bummer when you're in the middle of something.

Usually I can entertain her while I pump during the day at home. Usually. Not yesterday though. Yesterday she was not having it.
I actually missed a pump session yesterday because she was having a really tough time. She is in the middle of a growth spurt, which means…one minute she is playing, smiling and giggling and the next she is completely inconsolable. I sat down to pump and set her up for some play time…then she went berserk.

The missed pump caused a lot of pain, but when I finally had the chance to get to it, I felt SO much better. I don't seem to have any clogged ducts or any symptoms of mastitis. I won't know if my supply will dip because of this until these next few days.

Well, I made it to my first goal, which was Aria's 12 week mark. I feel pretty good about this because when she first started her nursing strikes, I really didn't think we had a chance. It is definitely hard. But then again, name a part of motherhood that isn't hard. Our next goal is 16 weeks. If we make it, we'll add on another 4 weeks and head for 20. If we don't, I'll learn to accept it and move on.

In spending the past 2 months exclusively pumping, I've been through a lot of trial and error. I've put together a list of things that have been important for me. I hope it may be helpful for some of you!

1. Get a good pump! Medela Pump in Style rocks my world!!!! It is a little pricey but I promise you it is worth every penny.

2. Stick to a schedule. At the beginning I pumped every 3 hours to help maintain my supply. Since I have an oversupply, pumping that often yielded around 50 ounces.
I was going a little crazy with getting a max of 2.5 hours of sleep at a time and being stuck to my pump ALL day, so I took the chance of scaling back to every 4 hours, 20 minutes per session. Luckily I did not have a dip in my supply. Most everything I've read says that you shouldn't drop pumps until after your supply is established at 12 weeks. I took the chance because I had so much extra milk.

3. Lubricate. I use olive oil or coconut oil to lubricate the nips before putting them in the flanges. It makes a world of difference. Especially with all of the tugging going on between the pump and the double tugging if you are breastfeeding too.

4. Research milk storage. There are a few different rules for milk storage. I generally follow the 4's rule. Four hours at room temp, four days in the fridge, four months in the freezer. Also, NEVER re-refrigerate milk that has been heated up. It can spoil. I learned that the hard way.

5. Don't be shy about it. If I'm at someones house, I'll just say "Hey do you have somewhere I can pump?" Don't skip pumps because it can lead to clogged ducts, mastitis and it can hurt your supply.

6. Hands free pump bra. Medela makes a hands free pump bra which is the one I have. You could spend the money to buy one, or you could just cut some slits in a sports bra and use that. I know some ladies who did that and it seems to be just as effective. The hands free bra is soooo important. When you spend so much of your time pumping, multi tasking is key. I write blog posts (ahem) while pumping, answer emails, change diapers, entertain the babe.

7. Join a support community. It's nice to talk to people who are experiencing the same things as you…and it's a really great resource for questions. There are a few pumping groups on Facebook that I belong to. Even if you aren't exclusively pumping, check out the groups. They are made up of all mommas!

Pump Strong New England

Exclusively Pumping Moms

I'm going to go enjoy my coffee, while the house is still silent.

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Let's Get This Party Started!

Tuesday, December 3, 2013
Good morning! It's a typical morning over here. I'm having breakfast…

Eggs, Spinach, Grilled Chicken and Grapes

And Aria is on her first nap of the day. I've learned to embrace her naps and use them for ultimate productivity. The first nap, which generally happens about 2 hours after she wakes up, usually consists of me making myself something delicious for breakfast…watching yesterdays episode of ellen, and starting laundry for the day. 

Rather than trying to put her on the schedule, I've just sort of let her schedule work itself out. Once I noticed a pattern, we started sticking to it. And it has been working! While she's awake, we do lots of fun activities, and she gets all worn out, then is ready to nap with no problem. Sometimes she wakes up much earlier than I would like…but in time that'll figure itself out. Since she started napping upstairs by herself, she has been doing better. There aren't as many noises (ahem…puppies) to wake her up. 

I've been chomping at the bit to start getting back into shape. Chomp chomp chomping. I need a babysitter to watch Aria for 3 hours a day so I can really kick it in to gear. Any takers???

Haha. Seriously though, I'm ready to get to work. The hardest part is finding the time. My gym does have childcare, which is AWESOME…but I want to wait until Aria can sit up on her own, to take her there for anything longer than a half hour. So right now I'm pretty limited on time. My gigantic husband works all day and then coaches highschool basketball, so by the time he gets home, it's late and I'm wrecked. Plus, we like to make some time for each other in all of the chaos. 

If I had unlimited time, I would whip myself back into shape with some super long, tough training sessions that would destroy me in the best way possible. 

Since that isn't an option right now (probably for the best, as my body has been through a lot in the past year…and the year before that) I've decided to do this in phases. That'll give my body time to adapt to the physical demands of a workout schedule, while still leaving energy and mental focus to care for my sweet poop machine. 

Phase One will consist of focusing on regaining muscle tone and strength. A cardio routine will still be present, but it'll take a back seat for the time being. I'm not thrilled about that, but I've accepted it. Smart and logical Tami knows that is very important for me to take this slowly and rebuild a good fitness and strength base, after the physical demands of pregnancy and child birth. 

I wanted to set myself up for success on this quest, so rather than focusing my workouts on required time and equipment at the gym, I'll be doing them from home. The gym will be reserved for those days when I spin and run.

What will I be doing from home?

T25 Ya'll!

I've heard good things about the T25 program, and 25 minutes is a very easy commitment even with an unpredictable tiny person. It's a high intensity, fast paced program, jam packed into 25 minutes. 

I'll keep you guys updated on if it lives up to it's claims. 

My cardio routine will consist of 3-4 days a week of running anywhere from 3-6 miles or taking an hour long spin class. 

I'm feeling pretty pumped about getting this started. Phase One starts today!!!!

Is anyone else out there doing, or has done T25? What did you think?

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