Thank god for that No Doubt song! Otherwise I would have no idea how to correctly spell bananas.
First things first. Daycare did not work out for us. I really loved the program Aria was in. I loved the teachers and the director and everything about it. Aria really took to everyone so wonderfully and always had a blast. What I didn't love was the price. Holy shit it is so expensive!!!
When we calculated the cost plus what I bring in, it seemed like we would have an okay surplus. What we didn't factor in was that my schedule is weird (not a typical 9-5) and that some of my responsibilities involve a decent amount of driving. (ie. the drive to work(s) or the traveling I do for the after school programs).
The first problem…my erratic schedule. There are some days when I work for 8 hours…and there are other days where I only work for 4. On the days where I only work a few hours, we still had to pay for the entire day of daycare. On those days I didn't even bring in enough to cover the cost for the day.
The second problem…germs! Aria has been sick since we started her in daycare back in February. She consistently has something. Just when she starts to get better, she gets something else. While I understand that this is building her immune system, the issue lies in the fact that she is getting sick from daycare. Yet, when she is sick, she cannot go to daycare that day. Which means, I'm home from work and were still paying for the day of daycare.
The third problem…the driving. We definitely didn't factor in the cost of gas into our equation. Usually that wouldnt' be a big deal…but I work a decent drive from home, plus one of my responsibilities is an after school program, which includes a lot of driving.
Basically all of the extra income is being eaten up.
We're working on a plan b, to make better of the situation. I love my jobs and I am very passionate about what I do. But the fact of the matter is for a little while, I am going to have to rearrange my time and cut back a little bit. Luckily we have some family who is going to step in a couple of times during the week. And I have a nanny for another weekday. The rest of what I do is going to be rerouted to the weekend, when my husband is home. It isn't ideal, but if I want to keep myself in the game, it has to be done that way right now.
Enough about that. Let's talk about training. Training is going well. I'm doing more strength training that usual and I'm noticing a big difference. There is more power in my runs. I'm loving it. I feel like I'm kicking ass right now.
I still haven't committed to any big deal races for the summer. My big deal stuff is all in the fall. I'm apprehensive about committing to something in the summer because I'm a huge chicken shit and I don't want to show up not ready.
I feel this intense amount of pressure (all coming from my subconscious obviously) to perform at some crazy, unimaginable level, my first race back.
It is possible that I may have built it up in my head a little bit.
If I can offer a piece of advice to you this Monday evening…beware of food related documentaries. I watched two last week that totally F-ed me up. I've seen some crazy shit in my 31 years…but this destroyed my soul. I didn't sleep for 2 days and I still can't stop thinking about it. I also haven't eaten one animal product since. I had never watched this subject matter before, because I always assumed that I was better off not knowing.
Turns out I was right.
It's time for me to get going now. I have a very sick little baby who needs a lot of extra snuggles.